"We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand." ~Randy Pausch

Friday, August 20, 2010

Another Good Day

I had dialysis on Thursday morning and then I got to come home! I wasn't sure how I'd feel about being away from the hospital, but it really is nice to be in my own bed at night. I slept pretty well.

Anna had a pretty good day, too! They took her off of her breathing tube again. Her feedings are going so well that they increased the amount of milk she's getting from 3 mL to 7.5 mL every 3 hours. Keep in mind that 30 mL = 1 oz, so she's not getting that much. But she's digesting every bit of it!

She was still on the Bili lights yesterday. Her blood level was a 6 and the cut off was a 6, so they kept her on for one more day. Today she is officially 32 weeks and the cut off is 8. As long as her level is below 8 they she'll come off the lights and we'll be able to hold her today! I can't wait!

Last night I got to change her diaper! Not many moms would be as excited as I was to do that. And when the respiratory specialist came around to fix all of her tubes and such he let us get a good view of Anna without her masks. She still has lines and creases on her face, but it felt so good to see her without all of that mess.

We spent a couple of hours with her last night and I'm starting to feel a little more attached. Last night was the first night I woke up asking myself what she was doing. What a good feeling. I can feel a turn-around, and I'm so grateful!


  1. I am so happy for all of you!!! It has been such a scary and physically uncomfortable several weeks, really months, for you, and it is so good to feel that all of that is starting to shift. How are you feeling??

  2. Ditto to Stacey! Well said! My heart feels lighter for you all. You are a great Mom, Kelly and Jason is a great Dad! Enjoy holding you precious baby. Prayers continue!

  3. I have to say, ladies, that I'm feeling really good. The physical pain in my stomach is rough at times. But emotionally, I'm starting to FEEL things for the first time. It was almost like I was numb before. Weird!

  4. I would imagine that you would have to be numb to protect you from the trauma of all that you have been through recently. Things have seemed rather nightmarish and now you are in the midst of waking up. I know your emotions are probably kind of all over the place, but I want to celebrate with you how incredibly strong you are!! I really cannot imagine experiencing everything that you have! Anna and Alli are two very lucky girls. They have quite a phenomenal mom!!!! Thanks for blogging too. I like being connected to you.